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I was going to crosspost this from DW, but I had problems singing in and it's five in the morning, so it'll have to be posted from here instead. :D Why am I awake?

I want to spread some love for you, our beloved noodle. In my own strange way.

Click )

Here I am

Apr. 7th, 2017 01:10 am
maccadole: (Leaves)
I've been meaning to backup my journal for a while but didn't get around to it until two days ago, I think it was.

I haven't decided what my course of action is. I'm thinking I'll use DW as much as possible? But I'll be around on LJ too. Either way, I'll cross post or something. I'll figure it out.

So far I've imported my LJ to DW, but that's all.

Come find me there, if you wish.

I'm so sad :( I'm trying to be optimistic but it's haaard.
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Title: The Inevitable Closeness of Proximity
Author: [livejournal.com profile] maccadole
Pairing: Harry Potter/Draco Malfoy
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 3140
Content/warnings: mentioned forced bonding, bed sharing, bit of a poke while the other is asleep
Summary: One bed, two wizards and the first of seven nights.
Notes: [livejournal.com profile] carpemermaid, my precious friend. Happy birthday!! Thank you for being so supportive and kind to me – especially these past few months. You are such a darling. I wrote you some tropey H/D, because we both like that, and silly Drarry is how you and I met. <3 I hope you like it. Unbeta'd, so all mistakes are my own. Thank you, [livejournal.com profile] shiftylinguini for the title. (And the sequel suggestion The Inevitable Proximity of Harry's Cock to Draco's Arsehole LOL ♡)

The Inevitable Closeness of Proximity )
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Title: (Not so) Silent Night
Author: [livejournal.com profile] maccadole
Pairing: Albus Severus/James Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~11500
Content/Warnings: Sibling incest, pining, wanking, handjob, blowjob, rimming, fingering, Albus is 17
Summary: Having to share a room with one's sibling over the holidays could drive anyone mad, but for Albus it's a whole new level of frustration.
Notes: Dear [livejournal.com profile] cap_bookworm, at first this wasn't supposed to be a birthday gift, but then it was, and then it... still was. Sort of. But ~life happened, and here we are. Still, happy belated birthday, 11 million years later. Also, thank you [livejournal.com profile] carpemermaid for looking this over for me. Your enthusiasm and support helped greatly. <3
maccadole: (Leaves)
Nnnngaahhhh. I mean, hi. How are you?

So, I switched jobs this autumn. Last autumn? What do you even say? In any case, I now work with a preschool class as a teacher's aide. The kids are all six years old, or just about to turn six. They're freaking adorable. But this job? It's a kind of internship thing, so while I work there it's not been a job as such. You know? BUT GUESS WHAT. In March, when my internship ends, they're going to hire meeeeeeee. AAAHHHHHH!!!!

Eeee, and I wanted to share my silly socks with you. My friend Q knits a lot and for my birthday in October, she gave me pair of adorable socks, among other things. She said she wanted to include something HP related since I'm into that again now, but she didn't know what. But she'd already started knitting said socks by the time I was writing my Albus/Teddy fic. Which she beta read for me. (YAY!) She said she couldn't stop thinking of Teddy's hair as she finished the socks, bahaha, and that she counted them as a vague HP gift. And I think of them as my Teddy Socks, for sure. (The colors don't come out as well against this floor, or with my phone's camera, but you get the idea.)

Teddy Socks picture )

Also, have you read [livejournal.com profile] cap_bookworm's new fic? I did such a shit job as a beta, I swear to grapes. For example, when reading through it (a second time, I might add) to look it over... Well, I saw this one line that had me flipping my shit, because of the perfect actions taking place. I wrote a short comment in the google document, praising it, and THEN I noticed there was a whole extra word in that sentence. I was so busy loving the plot that I forgot the writing, it seems. I should've definitely read through it more times. :D If there are any shitty mistakes, blame me.

It RUINED me, though. I still think of it and die a little inside. I can't even tell you. It's been a while since I was so completely ruined by a smutty fic. UGH.

It's delicious and I rec it so hard.

Title: Confess to Me, All that Lies Between Us
Pairing: Draco/Harry/Teddy, Harry/Teddy, Draco/Harry
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 6,400
Summary: Teddy pays a visit to his godfather, who also happens to be a professor at Hogwarts.
Content/Warnings: Age disparity (H/D: 40’s, Teddy: almost 18), D/s dynamics, semi-public sex, blowjobs, handjobs, wanking, anal sex, rimming, fingering, come play, orgasm denial, Legilimency, godson/godfather relationship, cousin incest, threesome, spit-roasting, praise!kink, bottom!Harry, top!Draco, Dom!Teddy, voyeurism, hair-pulling, nipple play, face-fucking, hung!Teddy

ETA: Wow, I accidentally messed up. The link to the recced fic is now actually there. And I was going to end my post with this:

That's all from me. I hope to post a fic of my own soon. :D
maccadole: (Leaves)
Capriiii, you fucking delightful person. It's been so fun getting to know you these past two months. You're a joy, and precious to us, and I hope you never ever leave this fandom. I mean, heh, no pressure. ;D

But if you do, I'll probably stalk you to the next.

You're a talented shit, and helping you with your fic was an honor. Thank you so much for letting me see it. I adore your style for that one, the artistic way you change POV and the way you make the UST so incredibly vivid with so few words. I mean, damn. If anyone's missed it, you should read her wonderful Draco/Albus Severus ficlet (500 words) and leave some love.

You're a wonderful artist and a brilliant person, and I'm so glad you found your way here. This corner of the fandom wouldn't be the same without you. Now that you're posting again (I can relate, by the way, when it comes to life distracting you lately) you should definitely post more art and fic. We'd love to see more.

I — er — have a fic that I'm writing for you, as you know. :D No secret there, because I'm a slowpoke and the boys first refused to start fucking one another, and now they can't stop. I swear I will get that you soon, as a belated birthday gift.

Would anyone like to beta some smutty James/Al for me, actually? It's not done yet but it'll be approximately 10-15k when it is, knowing me. (It's currently 9200 words.) I know, it's ridiculous. I have issues when it comes to keeping things short. I ended up adding pining and stuff.

So much for a short pwp scene! OH WELL.

In any case, Capri, I'm glad you spammed Birds and found your way here. You're a treasure. Never change, darling.

WOHO!!!! *throws confetti and runs off*
maccadole: (Leaves)
Hello, everyone! I am indeed alive.

I took a bit of a break from LJ. I didn't plan to, it's just that my to-read list made me feel less "ooh, yay, I have so much fun stuff to look forward to" and more "fuck, there are so many stories I ought to be reading."

Want turned into should. And that's silly.

So instead of stressing myself out about "having to" stay up to date with everything, I took some time off. I hope to backtrack a little bit, but I'll likely not do that a lot. Forgive me if I haven't been commenting on your posts lately. <3

Ugh, I'm reading my third Erised story right now, and they've all been soooo goooooood so far. Gods, I've missed fic and LJ and all these fests and— UGGH. You know?

And I finally saw Fantastic Beasts a week or two before Christmas, by the way. I'd promised to go see it with friends, that's why I had to wait so long. I forget when it was, but I liked it a lot, though, I've got to say. I knew literally nothing about it, somehow, so that was fun. Although, okay, I knew Alison Sudol would appear in it, and that she'd have what I thought would be a cameo — except it turned out she played Queenie and had a giant part, so I was very very delighted. :D

I love her music and have for years. I was thrilled when I saw a random tweet once, early on, that she'd be in it. It was pure accident too, because while I have a Twitter account, I'm never on there. Eee, and she was so beautiful. Her album Pines is one of my favorites ever, and it means a lot to me. I listened to it a lot a couple of years ago, taking comfort in the story of it. It starts out really atmospheric with slower songs about being down in the dumps, and going through the motions, but for each song it gets catchier and brighter, and towards the end it's about moving on and being optimistic – and feeling alive. UGH. Also, it has a nature theme and whatnot, of course, what with "Pines" and I love that. I love nature, and the woods. The forest where I live is like my second home.

But anyway, enough about that.

How are you doing? Good, I hope. How was your holidays? I celebrated Christmas with my mom, aunt and cousin. My brother lives in Hong Kong and although he and his girlfriend usually come back home to Sweden to celebrate with us, they didn't this year. But it was nice. We had a very nice and relaxing evening with good food, silly jokes, and presents.

My cousin asked what the best part of 2016 had been for each of us, and I honestly said that finding this community was one of the most meaningful things. You people are so supportive and accepting, and affectionate, and there's a fun and creative vibe traveling through this fandom, and I love it. It's very rewarding, being a part of it, and it's inspired me a lot the last few months. Sappy again, yeah, but still true.

In fact, it was exactly a year ago, almost to the minute, that I had the idea to re-read a classic Harry/Draco fic. I know this, because I was talking to one of my best friends about it on Skype chat at the time. I've mentioned her before – her nickname is Q, and we met through HP fandom in 2004.

I looked it up in our chat history, and, well, yeah. It was exactly a year ago. I know I started reading it that evening, and I was already consumed by the fic the very next day. Skimming the chat history was hilarious because there's clear evidence of me losing my mind over it. LOL. I remember that, though. It was so nostalgic reading it and remembering the first time around. It was so sentimental, and reading about the wizarding world again made me remember how much I loved it and the characters, and the pairing. Ugh.

When I finished the fic I went, "Soo... I can, uh, kind of imagine reading another."

And I did.

And here we are. <3
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*Takes a deep breath*

I am claiming my [livejournal.com profile] hp_nextgen_fest fic.

That is something I can do, because I wrote a fic. I wrote a fic, for a fest, and although I have done that before (this spontaneous H/D collab with [livejournal.com profile] carpemermaid for Draco's birthday) I have never claimed a prompt before. I've never anonymously signed up for a fest and had a deadline, and wow, it was so bizarre but so much fun.

And here we are.

Title: (We’re Just) Different Colours
Author: [livejournal.com profile] maccadole
Pairing: Albus Severus/Teddy
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~12700
Content/Warnings: Unrequited Albus/James Sirius and Teddy/James Sirius, incest fantasy, handjobs, intergluteal sex, dirty talk.
Summary: They both want someone they can’t have, so why not have a drink together and settle for second best?
Notes: My eternal gratitude goes out to Kai and Q, my friends that I am on about all the time, so much that I felt it safer to call them their real names in the original author's note for the fest. They helped shape this fic into what it is. Thank you.



My friends Kai and Q helped alpha and beta this, for which I am beyond grateful. Not only were they very helpful, but it thrilled me to have non-fandom friends assist me with it so that no one on LJ would know what I'd written. (Well, they are/have been in fandom overall as well as HP specifically, in the past. We actually met through HP in 2003 and 2004 respectively.)

They had very helpful ideas and opinions, and Q helped me sort of many clunky sentences. ♥

The title comes from the song Different Colors by Walk the Moon.

There's also a part that goes we're coming awake, out of your spell / as long as it takes, we're coming awake in the song.

And no one can ever convince me that it isn't a giant metaphor and that the "spell" isn't referring to James and his allure. :D :D Try me, I'll fight you. (Thank you Q for pointing that out! Also thanks to Q for introducing me to the song in the first place.)

I'd already missed my opportunity to write for [livejournal.com profile] hp_crossgenfest because I let myself be ruled by fear, and I wasn't about to do something so foolish again. Therefore, I looked at the prompts at NGF once more and bam, inspiration struck with [livejournal.com profile] shiftylinguini's prompt.

Now, I was still nervous, so it was supposed to be a short fic. Something easy and light, you know? Written so that I'd have something to add the fest. Nothing too graphic, of course. Semi-smutty, yes, but nothing explicit I could embarrass myself with. This would be my first posted fic online since 2005, after all.

Yeeah... about that.

This is what I wrote to Q later:

My short fic of 2-5k containing flirty R-rated smut in a simple one-shot scene, just for the sake of having a simple submission to contribute to the fest in order to participate for shits and giggles.........? Is 12600 words of flangsty feelings with PORN EVERYWHERE. :) :) :) KILL ME

*snorts loudly*

I word vomited all of Different Colours without a plan. :D :D And people still liked it! ???? OMG ??? :D

I think I can safely say that my first time claiming a prompt for a fest was a success. *does a little dance*

I'm glad I did it. I'm not as scared now.

Cheers!


I'm terribly sorry I haven't been as active on LJ lately. I've been... Well, actually, like I told a friend – I haven't been busy so much as distracted.

I haven't read [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised at all yet, oh dear! But most of all I apologize for not commenting on your posts, dear friends. I'll try and do better in the near future.

I hope you're all well. And hello all new friends I've made lately!
maccadole: (Leaves)
Hello!

I'm not dead or gone, I've been here, just reading and commenting on fests and letting life do its thing. How are you all doing? I've been communicating with some of you, but how about the rest? I hope you're all well, and happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrated it.

HOLY GRAPES (because if ever there was a time to say holy grapes, it'd be now) I'm overwhelmed by the love meme. It made me cry, and it seems I'm not the only one. Goodness, it's been a long time since I felt so genuinely appreciated. You're all so kind and affectionate, and reading all the lovely comments you left me really warmed my heart and made me tear up. It was precisely what I needed. <33 Fandom is great anddddd shit, it meant so much to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Just. Thank you. ♥

Reading and leaving comments for others was the most amazing thing. Gosh, what a lovely idea – this love meme thing. Definitely check it out if you haven't. But it's been a while, so I think you're all aware already. Wasn't it the best?

Life is good. I have a cold and I've missed out on some physical therapy because of it. Booo. I also missed work this week, but although I love my job I kind of needed the break, so it's fine. I think my maybe-cold finally broke out because of stress, actually. But now I'm doing much better.

AND I OWN A WAND.

A wise and magnificent Dutch wandmaker, living a secretive life in an undisclosed location in the Netherlands, felt the stars call upon him. He deemed me worthy and rushed to create one to match my magical signature. It arrived by owl all the way from there, just for me, with the most wonderful scroll explaining that it was fashioned out of willow.

Or, in other words, my buddy Eddy carved me a wand as a hobby. He made a few a couple of years ago but neither of us thought about it then. Now, though, he suddenly decided to make me one when his carving came up in conversation. Eeee! It's my first wand ever, and it's GORGEOUS. Seriously, he's done the most beautiful details on it, and I was in awe when it arrived. He wrote, in calligraphy (with a fecking wax seal and everything) that it was made from a willow branch, and that it was loosely based on Hermione's wand.

SUITS ME FINE, mister. Because, aaah, it has the most exquisite pattern with vines and golden details. I love gold and leaves!

My photos aren't perfect because they're taken with my phone in somewhat poor lighting. But these turned out best. LOOK!

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ETA: Ooh, Eddy has left a comment that you can see here, telling us about his process and showing us pictures. He doesn't use his account anymore, but I noticed his last post is from 2012, talking about making his first couple of wands. Haha, wow.
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Title: A Birthday Mission
Author: [livejournal.com profile] maccadole
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Rating: PG
Word Count: 2200
Warnings/Content: Crack. Meta. Bad Humor. Real Life vs Fiction. Getting Together. Veritaserum.
Summary: Harry and Draco belong together. They just need a push in the right direction.
Notes: Happy birthday, [livejournal.com profile] _melodic_!! I don't even know what your thoughts are on dumb, cracky stories so here's hoping you don't hate them? The real fic I started writing for you turned into a beast of a thing, and instead of rushing it, I'm going to take my time and treat it seriously instead. Then I will dedicate it to you, once it's finished. <3 For now, enjoy this unbeta'd piece of nonsense. (I'm so sorry and/or you're welcome!!)

A Birthday Mission )
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Yesterday was my birthday and I barely know where to begin. Cursed Child is finally mine, at least, I can say that much. Now I can read it myself and see what I think. Apart from that I got 29 other gifts. Yes, you read that correctly. I kept feeling like Dudley.

But they were all little things, down to useful stuff like new underwear, haha. So it wasn't 30 luxury items. Mother wanted to do something fun for my 30th birthday, so she decided to get thirty small gifts.

I've been gifted things online too and... way more than I ever expected. I'd heard whispering about one person writing me a little something and I was ecstatic. But then FOUR people wrote me something, and others sent me birthday messages. I'm honestly a bit overwhelmed. I literally didn't see that coming.

My friend Q and I started out as fandom friends and she's given me handwritten ficlets alongside physical gifts before, once or twice, kind of like a bonus. But by that point we'd already known each other – and met regularly – for years.

Meaning I've never had an online fandom friend write me something. Not like this. And that's kind of strange in a way, isn't it? Considering I've been in fandom for so long. But somehow I've never connected enough with people for them to do that?? Hence: ME BEING A LITTLE OVERWHELMED.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much. It really means a lot. It is SO inspiring and motivating knowing that people actually care and show support for each other in this community. I love how creative and appreciated it makes me feel. You are all the best!

I have my very own homemade cake and it is delicious. I've only had to share it with Mother and my aunt so far so there's plenty left, hahah. YUM. And when my aunt was here, she told us about a silly radio show that she thought was fun. We ended up listening for a while, the three of us. The program has a new theme every day and people get to call in. Yesterday's theme? "Things that have been ruined for you."

The first caller? Well, it was a young woman claiming that Harry Potter had been ruined for her. She seemed good-natured about it though and when they asked her why, she said it was because of a game she'd heard of. One that I think many of us have heard of at some point. *SNORT* You know, when you replace the word "wand" with "penis"?

This was, of course, hilarious to me. Not so much because of the juvenile game itself but more because of their reactions. Also Harry Potter grabbing a penis seemed to be my very own birthday theme, considering what people wrote for me. :D

She asked if the hosts wanted a few examples and one started with Harry casting his patronus. By that time I bent over in my chair and face-planted into the kitchen table half mortified and half dying of laughter because I knew what was coming. Yeah, so it was all about him gripping the wand penis tighter and white stuff shooting out of it. :D Mother was horrified but also vaguely amused and both of them seemed wildly confused while I cackled like a mad person.

All in all it was a lovely, slow day. One of those relaxing ones that end up being just the right amount of fun without being too much or too tiring.

Maybe you've seen these already but click below to check out what people wrote for me. <3

birthday gifts )

Aaw dgkhfd

Oct. 2nd, 2016 11:58 pm
maccadole: (Leaves)
I just realized today is my anniversary.

October 2nd 2002.

That's when I signed up for Hogwarts.nu and from that moment forward I didn't merely love the books, I joined the fandom.

Ugh. Nostalgia. I had an owl named Scrollow, a phoenix called Cordy, two dragons – a Norwegian Ridgeback and a Romanian Longorn – named uhm... Twyxia and what what is? Fluffpuff, or something like it. Let me check. Ah, yes, "Fluffphuff" with an H. I'm so sorry. And I honestly can't remember the name of my damned rat.

You could only see the names of the dragons in a particular section, for all other pets you had to hover your cursor over them to see what they were called and I can't do that with old screencaps. And as I mentioned in another entry, the website shut down in 2006. So I can't exactly sign in and check there either. Anyway, I'm sure this is all very riveting for you guys. In any case, they consisted of images you had on your profile that you could click and drag around. It was all very modern, you see. HAH.

The message boards, though. Uggh. That's what it was all about. And if I hadn't signed up for that website I don't what would have happened to me. I had one childhood friend I met on a regular basis up until then.

From that point on, I met friends. Both local, irl, and internationally online. I mean, heck, I got talking to one of my best friends in 2003 on there. Kai. And although she's Swedish she lived in the US with her family.

And Q. Uggghhhhhh. I might've died without Q. And she can blame me for her stupid nickname, literally. Ahaha. I didn't know what to call her so one day when chatting I wrote to her and said that I was going to pick a random letter off the keyboard. And I thought Q was fun. And... yeah. Over ten years later and I still call her Q IRL. (Everyone keeps asking if it's from Bond or Star Trek and we're like, "Errrrr, nooo...")

We lived a fucking hour apart. Like, on one hand there was Kai in the States – and then suddenly Q lived an hour from me. Score! Most convenient friendship ever.

Anyway. Sentimentality aside. It was great.

And now here I am. Back home. <3
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I was thinking about the wonderful birthday bird [livejournal.com profile] birdsofshore that we all know and love, and how lucky I am to know her.

How lucky I am to know all of you.

I was a miserable, sobbing ball of sadness and emptiness in January, and then I rediscovered HP fic and my love spiked again. That helped distract me while I worked on getting better, and while I've read fic before in my life I'd never read quite so much of it on a regular basis. It was amazing.

By May I was recognizing names and practically drooling at the thought of befriending those people. Once I started finding the good fic, and the new fic, the usernames kept appearing until one day I was literally stage-shouting at my screen, "I want to be your friend!!"

Hahah, oh yes.

May 13th is when I tidied up my journal a bit and posted, among other things, this:

That's partly what made me return here, I remembered. See, I may want to use this account to sneak around communities and such, because I'm starting to notice, as I lurk, that there are still people active here in that section of the fandom. Hm, hm. And the more fic I read, the more I keep seeing the same names over and over again. They write, they comment, they mention each other. I kind of want to befriend them all? (Desperately, at times.)

Birds was the first person I talked to directly and she was so kind and helpful. She reintroduce me to this fandom. ♥ I wish her all the best not only on her birthday, but in life. Thank you so much for your encouragement and kind words, dear!

Would you believe that I've been in fandom since I was a teenager (and I turn 30 in exactly one week) and yet never participated in a fest?

Until June 2016, when I felt like peeing myself because I was so nervous and filled with anxiety at the prospect of showing my writing to anyone. But I wanted it SO BAD I could feel my skin crawling, I swear. I wanted to participate and not just stand by and watch. I didn't want my stupid irrational fear and anxiety to rule me. And so I ended up spontaneously collaborating with the lovely [livejournal.com profile] carpemermaid for Draco's birthday fest over at [livejournal.com profile] dracomalfoy. It took some of the pressure off – doing it together – and it was SO MUCH FUN. You, Carpe, you beautiful mermaid, were so sweet and hilarious and accepting of my ideas. You've no idea how much that meant. :D It was the proof my brain needed to understand that things aren't necessarily all Scary Doom all the time.

And slowly but surely I unlurked and started posting these obscenely long comments and reviews, and people were talking to me, and friending me, and I friended people. AAH.

Then the astonishingly beautiful [livejournal.com profile] _melodic_ asked me to help her with her fics, and I felt so appreciated and useful and happy. God, Mel, getting to know you has been one of the best parts of returning to HP/HD fic fandom and I'm so grateful for all the wonderful things you've done for me along the way.

Now here I am.

And my wish came true.

I have a bunch of tremendously remarkable friends and acquaintances now, and I'm taking part in a wonderful fandom again. I'm doing a lot better now, both mentally and emotionally, and all you friendly people with your amazing writing and accepting attitude helped so much without hardly even knowing it.

I feel like I've come a long way and yet it's only been a few months since I unlurked. It's crazy. I've never been in such a caring, interactive fandom before. Not in this way, at least. Well, that would be HP in that case, back when I was a teen and spent my days on a Swedish Harry Potter site that no longer exists. (It shut down in 2006 and there's supposedly going to be a reunion in Stockholm for the ten year anniversary. It's fitting I got back into HP this year, I realize.)

I've even signed up for a fest. Me! If that's not a sign of progress, I don't know what is. It's the first time I've ever properly claimed a prompt, officially. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING ANYMORE :D but I am SO EXCITED!!

Talking to my counselor helped most of all, of course, but fandom did its fair share too. I'm so happy that I'm already this lucky, after such a short while, and I can't wait to get to know even more people and start writing again.

This community is the best and I'm feeling so sappy tonight. ♥
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Apparently my patronus is a dolphin. Eee, so cute.

I mean. It's a bit random but at the same time I did used to have a dolphin pretend friend when I was a little child. I think I made up a whole family of them, actually. I also had a stuffed animal that was a dolphin. I think I got a lot of my early love for dolphins from Mother and now I'm more neutral? But they're cute though so I'll definitely stick with this as truth. It kind of makes sense what with my imaginary friend and all anyway, so it's fine. My patronus is a dolphin, it is set.

I took the Pottermore quiz late last night when I was so tired I wanted to cry, ahahah, but I'd already put it off for later several times and I decided to just go for it. If I truly found myself in a situation where I'd need to cast the charm, I wouldn't be feeling very happy anyway. It seemed fitting. So I tried to think of a happy memory, took the quiz, and then a dolphin appeared. :D Aw. (And then I went straight to bed LOL.)

AAHH I'm so behind on reading fic too because . . . I HAVE BEEN WRITING A LOT LATELY.

Yes, I'm finally letting go of my inhibitions. Slowly. Watch me post fic in about a month's time, guyssss. (If I can finish it, that is. OH GOD the words won't stop coming. Save me.)
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Sssooo, I met with the principal of a local elementary school the other week and had a bunch of questions thrown at me, and today was my first day at work so clearly I did something right. YAY.

I work with the preschool class, so all the kids are six years old. I worked at a non-school based preschool before this... if that makes sense? I don't know what you call it and how you define the different terms where you're from. (I guess it depends on location and person?) They were three to five years old there, anyway, because I worked with the oldest kids at that preschool. Sadly I wasn't able to stay there, but YAY now I have this new job.

My first day was great and I was given a hug by an adorable little girl. :D She was all, "See you tomorrow, Miss!" Ugh, my heart.


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Yay, Fantastic Beasts coloring book.


And I went to IKEA the other day, like the Swede I am, and the first thing I thought when I visited the toilets was that the stalls were not large enough to have convenient sex in. The floor was surprisingly fresh and clean, were a certain bespectacled bloke to give some blond man a blowjob while on his knees, but heck if I know how they'd fit. I suppose one of them would have to sit on the lid of the toilet or something. Perhaps the men's restroom is designed differently? *Shrugs happily* I don't know about you, but these are now the things I ponder when visiting department stores.

Now I have to sleep because I start working at seven tomorrow morning. YAY! (And I mean that genuinely. I may not be a morning person but it's nice to have a job again.)
maccadole: (Leaves)
Weeks and weeks ago I was going to post about a few things, most of them fandomy, but I never got around to it. By now I only remember one thing.

I've been lucky enough to have had some pretty spectacular dreams over the years while I've been into various franchises, and shortly after I found myself back where it all started for me I did have one about HP. But, uh... well, get this, the dream was that I kissed Snape. I don't know how that makes you feel, but it completely baffled me. Listen, Snape...? *Thumbs up*

Great character, absolutely, but he's not my favorite or anything?

In the dream he looked like a mix between my headcanon and Alan Rickman. Which, to be fair, is pretty close anyway. He was a wonderful Snape, and such a handsome man. Honestly though, I'm still so confused. Out of all the characters to dream about...? But I'm still fairly delighted, I must say, all things considered.

Actually, I still remember this H/D dream I had when I was a teenager. It was wholly uneventful because it wasn't a detailed one, more like the kind of dream that's foggy and doesn't leave you remembering much. Basically, there was this campsite with cabins and a beautiful lake, and I was there with my family at the start of the dream. I saw Draco sitting at the end of a simple wooden pier, and then a car drove up further ahead, at the bottom of the campsite, and it was the Dursleys? Harry scrambled out and noticed Draco and they looked at each other. Then Harry and Draco had to stay there for quite a while, for some reason, and eventually - one day - they ended up sitting next to each other at the end of the pier and sharing a ~moment.

I remember being giddy about it all day after I woke up even though nothing even happened.

In other news.

dorky enthusiasm for a non-fandom thing, and a photo of myself )

I have some vague ideas for things to write too, I just have to work up the nerve to actually do it. At least I'm one step closer?

I hope you're well and having a good weekend. :D

Ohoy.

Jul. 31st, 2016 08:27 pm
maccadole: (Leaves)
Hullo, I've been away.

AHA, adventure! )
maccadole: (Leaves)
I was tagged, twice. :D Simply begin the next answer with the last letter of the previous answer.

01) Name: Mac
02) Animal: Cat
03) Girl's name: Tuva
04) Color: Apple green
05) Movie: Nothing
06) Something you wear: Garments
07) Drink: San Francisco
08) Food: Omelet
09) Item in the bathroom: Toothbrush
10) Place: Hogwarts
11) Reason to be late: Sexy fic

Let's be real here, guys, all sorts of fic can make you late for appointments. Am I right or am I right? Just me then? Okay. Maybe I should control my reading a bit more when I need to get ready...

Funny how the drink thing worked out, too, because the only properly mixed drink I've ever had is a San Francisco. It was delicious.

(Also, disclaimer, I haven't seen the movie in about a decade and I was a liiiittle more invested in one of the actors starring in it at that point. I have a feeling it wouldn't hold up today.)

In other news, I'm enjoying a somewhat mediocre summer so far. It's not fantastic, but I don't mind. I'm about to meet a friend on Tuesday that I haven't seen for years and I'm looking forward to that. Well, as long as my ear is better by then.

My right ear's messed up. It's entirely blocked and I hope the local clinic can help me with that tomorrow because the damn drops they gave me on Wednesday just blocked it entirely after a few days?? I don't know if it's the liquid only or if something else is going on in there by now. I guess I'll know tomorrow when I am meant to call back if the problem remains.

If anyone wants to do the meme, feel free to. I won't pass it on to anyone specific, because it seems the few new people I follow are either tagged by now or they've done it already. I haven't unfriended anyone from the past but they don't seem to be around anymore. But if anyone at all wants to take part, then go ahead. :D
maccadole: (Leaves)
Ah. So many things to talk about.

This'll get a bit lengthy so I'll cut it, but basically it's all about various HP thoughts and feelings.

Such as contemplating what would happen if people found out about the weird-not-weird shit I read and want to write, and how to prevent that from happening, as well as rambling about the Patronus Charm and pondering hilarious prompts.

Click for more )
maccadole: (Gate)
Well.

This account is still a horrible mess and I should work on that. I got the worst of the dust off, though?

I know I tried to make sense of my tags years and years ago in the hopes that I could make them useful. Eh, well, I never finished that project. I don't think I ever will, really. I can try using them properly in the future, maybe, but that's about as far as I'll go. As for my theme, it seems to have gone a bit wonky - at least the way it displays for me, on this computer/browser - but I'm thinking I'll leave that too. I'm not actively into any particular TV show at the moment, but I will always love Stargate SG-1. It's a ridiculous show and not even that good, but it's charming and just my dumb sort science fiction. I loved it then and I love it now. Michael Shanks and Amanda Tapping are still two of my favorite people, and green is still my favorite color. Why not keep it? Besides, I like it when things are a bit nonsensical so the crookedness of it sort of makes me chuckle. I haven't decided yet though so we'll see later, but for now it remains.

I'm going to change my default icon to something generic, though. Something that isn't even fandomy, like a photo of a leaf like I have on my Tumblr that I use extremely sporadically, sheesh. I considered using the same picture alhough it has its flaws but I can't find it, which is a little worrying. I can't exactly use Google to find it, either, because I'm the one who took it and I never uploaded it online. Maybe it's still in my backup folder? I can look later. But I'm thinking something a little greener would make more sense here, anyway.

It's good to be back.

I lurked around a Whose Line community here on LJ in 2012. I visited it on and off over the next two years, and although my friend posted on there I never did so myself. I do have some ficlets I could post there, I suppose, but they're so short and self-indulgent I've never bothered.

I honestly can't remember the last time I posted something online. I've been writing for myself or for my friends (especially one particular friend) exclusively the last couple of years, so the idea of posting something online for everyone to see feels scary as balls. But, hey, I know I could improve a lot if I let strangers give me constructive criticism.

I really look forward to writing for the HP fandom, in fact. I should get on that. You know, try writing something for myself only. Just to get a feel of it. Maybe it won't be as scary posting stuff if I write a few short stories first? Maybe...

Speaking of Harry Potter - I've started reading the books again. I picked up Philosopher's Stone yesterday. It's funny how before I got back into the HP fandom I felt like, "Wow, Mac, it's only been five years and you're reading the series again already?"

Now that I care on a different level again it's more like: "It's been five years, why did I wait this long!?"

It will take up some precious time that I could spend reading fic instead, of course, but I think it's acceptable when the reason is to read the source material. Right? Ghhn, though, my to-read list is obscenely long. It's actually so lengthy that I find myself illogically wishing for some of the fics to turn out bad so that I can skip them, haha. Wanting a presumably terrific list of stories waiting for you to turn out crappy makes little sense, yeah? Yeah. But the idea of the sheer amount of fics in that list of mine is starting to stress me out. It's silly. I am going to plow my way through that list and then proceed to pick one fic at a time instead. I know there'll always be a never-ending stream of stories and that sometimes I'll have to mark ones for later, heh, but I'm definitely going to try keeping that to-read list down to something more reasonable. SNORT. Let's see how well that goes the next time I find a rec list of two dozen fics, hm?

In any case, I'm excited to be back on LJ. I don't really have the heart to remove all the different Sanctuary comms, I must admit. They're dead now, since long - at least the few ones I checked. But gosh, when I was a part of the Sanctuary fandom on here... Good times, good times. Then I had about half a season to spend on Tumblr, too, when I finally created an account. That was fun back when I cared more about Tumblr. I liked the combination of reblogging things on there in a way we didn't have here, and yet you could come here for the episode discussions and stuff like that. I'm still sad that silly, silly show was canceled. The fandom was small enough even when the show was on the air, now it's pretty much gone completely. Goodness grapes, I even hosted a friending meme once. I think that's the most active I've ever been in a fandom. Aw, man, I remember how fun it was to meet people here and friend them and get to know them through their blog posts. I remember how fun it was sharing a fandom, and I'm so excited to sneak my way into the HP one now. I've missed it.

Wow, I ramble. I managed it again. Oh well, it's my journal, I can do whatever I like. :D

Off I go, though. I am going to have some tea and reply to some messages/emails, then reading some more HP and finally sleeping.
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