Mind Wind Open

I had trouble falling asleep last night. No, wait, I had trouble going to bed last night. I was kind of worried and couldn't relax, so I didn't even want to attempt to fall asleep. I think I had a lot of stuff piled up, because then I kind of freaked out for about a minute. Then I felt better right after.

When I finally did go to bed (around four in the morning) I fell asleep at once. I woke up at half past noon, with my phone next to my pillow. Oops. I must've turned the alarm off in my sleep.

During the night I had a dream that frejasanne was here, hanging out, in my room. While I was talking to her my breath started fogging up. Hers too. The room went a little chilly and dim. I was yelling about it being a ghost - because "clear signs omg!!" - and crying out for Dean and Sam to come save me. Because I was sort of scared.

( Read moar~ )

  DFTBA
    Mac

Dreams, huh?

I'm sure it's the third night in a row... I want to say third. Maybe I'm wrong? Because I can't remember all of them. But now it's been yet another night of intense dreaming.
This is at least the second night in a row that I've dreamt about my sister. For those who don't know... She passed away a few years ago.

In the first dream we were back in our old apartment, and she was back. She was hanging around, with one of her best friends, in her room. Just like old times. Just like it's supposed to be. Things were a bit weird... But she was back!
The whole dying was just a big error/misunderstanding/prank - something. That's the feeling I got from it. And now she was just... back.

Tonight...
Well, first I dreamt that I was at some convention for Max Payne (the first game) and it was strange. And my brother and sister were there. First just my brother. Hm. Yeah... Hong Kong is far away. I miss him.
And then there was my sister. But she couldn't stay. I knew she had to go away again. They both did. But my brother just had to go back to Hong Kong. My sister on the other hand... just had to... go away.
I figured... I don't see bro often, but at least I can see him again. So I decided to spend the last few minutes with her instead. I was going to follow her to her bus. We got dressed, and then we walked, through the snow, out in the cold. It was a nice walk.

Then I dreamt some more about our old apartment. And that I drove our car. AGAIN. I keep dreaming that every now and then.
And then Sheppy... Or, well, Joe Flanigan I suppose. Uh, he was here anyway. With his kids. And they slept in my bathroom. But then the second night they got to sleep on the bed. (Joe Flanigan has indirectly slept on "your" bed, Q! Har!)
I was also in Stockholm. Everybody were there! Random FeFo people. Not so random FeFo people. And just. Random people. Like Kai. Yeah. She was there. It was awesome. Ilu, Kai!
And Angelina, Martin ("hers" not "mine"), Dreaner... The regulars. Q, of course.

I keep dreaming that I'm with people. My friends and loved ones.

I miss them. I miss her.
I feel lonely. Stupid dream. ...Yet not. Well, whatever.

  DFTBA
/Emo Mac

WHEEE-- (Janet icon, even though she's not mentioned in this entry!)

This blog will come to you in two parts:

Part one - THE BEST WEBSITE EVER!

...Okay, I may have exaggerated there. But seriously! Michael Shanks! SG-1 audiobook! Michael Shanks! And I can order it! Online! Me! I can order it myself! With my own credit card! Because THEY ACCEPT IT! Usually sites are all "OI! That's a fake VISA. We hate Electron. DIE - BITCH - DIE!" and kick me in the face.
But this site is all "Hey, mate! We know you heart, stalk, and obsess over Michael Shanks like no other! You get to order the audiobook from us! Because we'd like to keep our hearts on the inside, instead of having you rip them out. THANKS FOR SHOPPING - PLEASE COME AGAIN!"

And Mac goes "WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE--" into infinity.



: D this blog entry probably sucks!
I should work on my grammar. And there's probably typos. Thanks.

  DFTBA
     Mac

Fine, I'll post. Been meaning to do so for ages. First I just... Didn't. Then I forgot.
Then, when I made a third attempt a few days later, I fell asleep at the computer. For forty minutes. That's... Pretty fail.

Watched A Dog's Breakfast tonight. Win! Weird. But win! So much win! New Doctor Who recently, too. That was sweet!

Anyway...


Rawr
/Mac