Sorry

[maccadole]

Hey. Sorry about the constant whining on Twitter and via personal text messages.
I just don't know what else to do.

My cat is driving me nuts. I love that little piece of shit. And it's not completely like she can help it.
But it's one of those lovely times of the year  (why did we get a female cat!?) and she's screaming and screaming and screaming.

I must've slept, since my last tweet was four hours ago. but I don't remember sleeping. I remember waking up. A lot.
And last time really felt like forever ago. I was hoping to GOD that it was closer to ten now, so I could get up and pretend I'd slept enough. I always get up at ten.
Maybe it was nine at least?

OH , NO! No, guess what time it was? 6:45 AND I LAST WOKE UP 45 MINUTES AGO!
That's what it's like. Sleep poorly for half an hour, wake up. Stay up for ten minutes. Fall asleep when it gets quiet. Sleep for forty-five minutes. Wake up and do it all over again.

LALALALALALAFUCKINGLA
Half past seven now. I am going to kill her and myself or fucking rip my fucking arm off so I have to go to the hospital or something. I seriously can't take this. I can't.
I'll have to stick her in a room and close the door or something. But then she'll just scratch the door and make it  slam over and over and over and over again. So that's if I lock her in a box and put her in a closed room. ANIMAL CRUELTY YAY!! Who needs food and water and to use the bathroom? Naaah, I'm sure she'll be fine for a couple of hours~~~~

Seriously flkgldlkgdlkhslkghSGFJSGFJDGSFLKHASDfagfsdgfgGKSGKGKKGFKKSERAGJAKERGKDAGFKDGSDGJSDJGFJSDKGDKGFDfgsdgSDgSDGSKGFJDKGKDG

I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW THAT I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!jdgslllgDFGGKHSSLKHLDFLSDFLJDFLGHLDSHF

I'll probably regret writing this later. And posting it.
But I don't even fucking caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaare right now. I'll delete it later in that case or WHAT THE FUCK EVER DLGJSGLJGFSLJFLJLSGLJHGLJSDLJSD

ANGERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

And I have no way to deal with it. Throwing things breaks stuff.
Plus my neighbors will probably kill me if I throw my chair across my room and/or slam all the doors in this apartment. Which is kind of what I feel like doing.
Punching my pillow is the lamest idea I've ever heard in my life. Mother's always told me to do that if I ever feel angry. But I never got it. The thought alone makes me frustrated as hell. Punching a wall, now, THAT I get!
But a pillow? HOW DOES THAT HELP? Should I snuggle it as well?

That's like saying "eat this pea" to someone who's starving. HELPS, DOESN'T IT?

YEAH, YEAH FUCKING HELL IT DOES!

So instead I'm posting motherfucking weird shit here instead. Whatever. Whinewhinewhinewhine might as well add to it. I'm sure my grammar sucks even more when I'm pissed.
Yeah. Yeah. Whining about that  even more. YES, wow, amazing

KILL ME NOW!!JSDGLJFLJGJDSLJGD

Fine, fine, fine fine. I have no idea. I suppose I'll try to sleep again. She's quiet now. But is it even fucking WORTH IT?!?!?!?!LJGDGSJS
I'll just wake up in an hour again, wanting to kill myself even more. God, I feel so dead. SGDJLJGSDLJLWELJTLJFLJVLJGFSDLG and I should do tons of stuff today. How the hell am I going to do that, with, like TWO HOURS of sleep?

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Shoot me.
Shoot her.

Comments

[mesmorizee.livejournal.com]

Kan ni inte sterilisera henne? Det brukar hjälpa. Iof svindyrt att göra det...

[maccadole.livejournal.com]

Vi brukade ge henne piller. Men sedan tog de slut och det... blev inte att skaffa nya. Och några gånger har det som inte hänt något. Hon har varit jättelugn. Men den här gången är hon helt störd!

Vi har funderat på att sterilisera henne, men det har inte heller blivit av. Delvis för att mamma alltid sagt att det ju inte en "big deal" men inte heller en... uh, liten deal. Och min katt har alltid varit jättesmal och liten. Hon är mest päls.
Så mamma oroade sej hur det skulle gå.

Och nu sa du en annan sak! Pengar. Det kostar mycket. Det är nog en annan anledning.

Och nu vet jag inte om det är much of a point. Hon är fortfarande skitsmal och töntig. Och ca 12 år gammal. Det kan vara elva... Jag kommer inte ihåg året. Bara datum. Haha!
Men ändå. Om vi har klarat oss hittills.

[mesmorizee.livejournal.com]

Om hon är tolv är det nog ingen mening att göra det. Hur ni klarat det i tolv år däremot är imponerande.

Det är mycket, mycket dyrare att sterilisera honkatter i jämförelse med pojkar.

Ni kanske skulle överväga att skaffa piller åt henne igen om hon fortsätter att vara jobbig. Men om det händer så sällan så är det nog en onödig utgift. Du får försöka stå ut?

[maccadole.livejournal.com]

:] hon brukar som sagt vara lugn av sej.
Den här gången vet jag inte riktigt vad som hon fått för sej.

Men det blir nog bra! Vi överlever. Och ja, det blir nog att börja med piller igen om hon ska hålla på så här i framtiden!