Thank you. Even though the matter of my entry is quite honest and serious, I didn't expect to get any comments. Especially considering it is so long. But I got several, and I love you all for helping me out.
It helps me to know that you know what I'm going through. As it seems right now, I have decided to quit WANO and I am standing by it and will most likely announce it at today's meeting.
Fefo is another thing I have been thinking about. I'm not there as often as I should be. I feel that I am letting them down, and that hurts me. I'm not much use, and when I do sign in I just check the messages I need to check and sign off. I don't give feedback unless I have to, and it's mostly a job to me.
I have been thinking of resigning there, too. For a while, actually. This thing with WANO is very new, but I've been thinking about Fefo for quite a while.
I'm not involved in the site at all. I just check posts for bad words, and then I sign out. Sometimes I forget to sign in for several days, or a full week. It's not how a crew member should behave. I basically don't keep track of things the way I should and once did. I'm practically out already. So I suppose I should quit there, too. But that feels even stranger than quitting WANO.
Hoggy and Fefo... Wow. Well, it's been a part of my life for way longer than anything else. I waited basically my whole time at Hoggy to be able to help, and join the crew.
And now that I finally got the spot... I just want to throw it away. That's what it feels like. All that I worked and dreamed and waited for. Now I have it, and I just want to quit. But I know it would be the right thing to do... for them, if not for me. So I should. But... I am so torn. Do I want to, or not?
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Date: 2010-03-16 12:43 pm (UTC)It helps me to know that you know what I'm going through.
As it seems right now, I have decided to quit WANO and I am standing by it and will most likely announce it at today's meeting.
Fefo is another thing I have been thinking about. I'm not there as often as I should be. I feel that I am letting them down, and that hurts me. I'm not much use, and when I do sign in I just check the messages I need to check and sign off. I don't give feedback unless I have to, and it's mostly a job to me.
I have been thinking of resigning there, too. For a while, actually. This thing with WANO is very new, but I've been thinking about Fefo for quite a while.
I'm not involved in the site at all. I just check posts for bad words, and then I sign out. Sometimes I forget to sign in for several days, or a full week. It's not how a crew member should behave. I basically don't keep track of things the way I should and once did. I'm practically out already. So I suppose I should quit there, too. But that feels even stranger than quitting WANO.
Hoggy and Fefo... Wow. Well, it's been a part of my life for way longer than anything else. I waited basically my whole time at Hoggy to be able to help, and join the crew.
And now that I finally got the spot... I just want to throw it away. That's what it feels like. All that I worked and dreamed and waited for. Now I have it, and I just want to quit.
But I know it would be the right thing to do... for them, if not for me. So I should. But... I am so torn. Do I want to, or not?